I used to sit around and worry when it came to things I really had no control over. Now I realize that was a waste of time and effort. If something is going to happen or is meant to happen, it will happen, no matter if I try to prevent it, no matter if I do everything in my nature to control the situation. Life will happen. I was realizing this when Kate was getting ready to go hang out with Kalynn. She was happy to leave and go hang out, I told her she could, and I would stay home and work on my homework and do some laundry. That is what I planned on doing today before work anyway. Kate needs to get out of the haus, and hang out with other people besides me and Skyler all the time. Soon we will have another baby, so she should go out and have fun while she can. A newborn baby takes work and attention. It doesn't bother me that she is going to hang out with her ex-girlfriend. It wasn't that deep in the first place. It actually wouldn't bother me if she were to go hang out with Jessica Lamb either. I am to the point where I know she is happy, satisfied and not going anywhere because she has a family and I do my best to keep her happy. If she wants to leave, she knows she can. All I can do is give her my all and hope its enough to keep her. I'm past the clinginess and jealousy we struggled with in the past. I'm happy it doesn't bother me and she is enjoying her friends. I like spending time with myself and Skyler. All my time goes to work lately and school, and its nice just to chill these days. I feel older and more mature, and it makes me happy. Being a mommy is great and I am happy with my love.
Randi
