I am. I am alot of things. Randi, Baby, Mommy, I don't feel like a daughter, or a sister to be honest. I think of my family..and I only see Kate and Sky and the new baby.. Is that a bad thing? I would possibly consider the rest of my immediate "family" my family but I don't have much interaction with them. Colleen is in South Dakota with her whole family, Brian lives in this same haus with us..but he doesn't feel related. They are more, if I'm in trouble, or hurt or something..they step in..but other than that they are in idle.. Eh.. lol I do have a brother..but I don't know Kyle, he doesn't know me and I don't think that will ever change.
That has been on my mind. Just because I think of the future of my family and I couldn't imagine having that gap between my children and I.. I would never want to move states away while they were growing up, or just go to work, come home and watch television all day.. There would be so much missed time and moments that define someone. I can't think about ever doing that..and I don't see how they could. I think I was the product of two people who weren't ready to be parents. But I love me and I wouldn't change a thing :)
I'm most likely going to enroll in Kaplain College for IT. I miss the Art Institute of Indianapolis..but I can't afford it. I love that school and I will go back to it when I can afford it again. I'm happy that James is still going. I am proud of you sir! I stay out of trouble and stay on the right path when I am keeping busy. Idle hands get me in trouble or mixed up with the wrong crowd if you know what I mean. I have no room for mistakes. Being 25 and having a 14 month old and another baby on the way, plus taking care of my fiance' and finances..doesn't leave me with time to mess up. Their lives depend on me. I strive to be successful in life and I'm glad I have importunity in life. I work 3 jobs technically, but my demo job at ASM is completely random.. I was working 4 day weeks then all of a sudden for the last 3 weeks...nothing. I work part time at Vermillion place for minimun wage, and that is my biggest check. Ugh. I also have my job at Treasure Point, but I have no set schedule and no guarantee on hours..but its still something. I hope things will pan out and more income will start flowing.
Well on a lighter note, I have restarted doing my yoga practice and meditation. I have been doing it for 4 out of 5 days. I missed one day because I worked all day and got tired. It relieves my stress and makes me feel great, plus it gives a spark to me and Kate ;) hehe. Times have been great! I am trying to prevent any complications with this pregnancy this time around. I am not going to die. Well I think this is a great first blog..so thanks for reading. I love you Kate, Sky and New Baby. We will get to see what you are tomorrow :)
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