So this is what I posted to my Facebook earlier today. What happened was I went to my "friend" Luke's page to see pictures of him and his new son, but when I clicked on his folder, I found this of my brother. So I took this screen shot after commenting on it, and posted it on my Facebook, tagged my brother in it, and then the comments started with Kyle, and with Leah (my other "friend"). I thought it was fair to my brother to know that his name and picture was out there in a negative way so I showed him. Of course this didn't sit well with the other parties involved. I mean what do they expect from me? Me to be like, oh cool feel free to talk shit about my brother, and I'll just stay out of it. I admit I usually do, but this just really pissed me off. The whole situation of Kyle dating Leah for years, them breaking up, her deciding to have a baby with a guy just to have a baby because Kyle doesn't want kids right now and she does, then dating this guy who used to be a good friend of mine, getting pregnant, breaking up with him for my brother then finding out she was pregnant. She got herself in the hole, and I have to read all of it. The war between Luke being jealous of Kyle, Leah being upset about Luke and blah blah blah. I tried explaining my views about it, but they got offended. Leah was like, "why do you have to drag my name in the dirt and give me a bad name?" Well who else would possibly tell Luke that Kyle beats women? Hmm? After all we lived with both of you and I know he doesn't beat woman, if he did then I would beat his ass, and we weren't raised that way. I got tired of it, and deleted her and Luke. I don't need their negativity in my life, and I'm tired of reading all the drama between them. I don't even hang out with Luke anymore, and Leah doesn't come around either, so whatever. I choose to stick up for Kyle because he isn't a bad person and is my only sibling. I'm just trying to change my ways. I know I haven't been the best person out there, and now is the time to be better.
Well other than that today has been a good day. Kate took me to see Resident Evil Retribution :) I was waiting forever to see it and omg it was amazing!! Thank you baby for taking me, I love you forever. I recommend watching it in 3D because its the only way. Tina and John watched Skyler for us when we went to see it. I admit, I worry about him when he is with anyone else because if something were to happen, its not like he can tell us. I just don't trust people, I'm protective of my family, but it was nice to get out and do something. Kate and I won't be able to for a while after Hayden comes. We decided to name him Hayden Elijah Colton Alfrey. My mom likes the name Colton, so we decided to replace it from Hunter to Colton, just for her.
Kate is celebrating her sisters birthday right now downstairs. They brought over some beer to drink in celebration. Alcohol doesn't sound appealing at all to me. Even after I am able to drink alcohol again, I don't think I want to. Looking back at the past, its always caused problems for me. I am not myself and I make stupid decisions when I get tipsy, and I hurt Kate by my actions sometimes. I'm not that person, and I don't want to drink again. Its not me, I've matured and have no reason to put poison in my body. I want to live my life and remember it free and clear :). Both of my parents drank and I didn't like it when I was little because they became people I didn't know, and fought and stuff. I don't want Skyler and Hayden to ever witness anything that will make them think different of me. I think really I'm just done dealing with things I don't have to deal with. It makes me happy how I can choose what to leave in my life and what not to. I'm going to try and do things because I want to, not because I have to or feel obligated to. I know I'm changing as a person, and outgrowing things, people, and habits. Its a nice thing. Being a second time mother makes me realize things, and how much responsibility I have in my life. All I want is to be happy and make my family happy, and healthy. If there is something or someone who disrupts that, then they will be gone out of our lives. Everyone gets their chance to be a part of my amazing life, and if they disrespect us, then its their loss. :) thanks for reading!
Randi Alfrey
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